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No, of course the blog isn't blank...it might not say much, but it's not blank...That is all that came to my mind when thinking of a title.  :)

So, I started the bcp's today but I still haven't gotten a calendar.  I really want to express my frustrations with the new nurse working with us...but I won't...mainly because she is new....and it will just get me irritated and I need to be beyond that! 

Since she hasn't gotten my calendar ready, that I was supposed to have last week or the week before even, I have taken it upon myself to make an attempt at calculating the injection start date, the transfer date, and the due date....I may not be spot on, but I know I am pretty close.  I am guessing the injections will start around 8/13, the transfer will be around 10/18, and the due date should be around 7/3.  :)  Of course these are my guesses...I will let you know soon if I am right...on any account!  :)  LOVES!

OH! Please pray for my surro-sister Tiffany whose mother is in the hospital on a ventilator. Please pray that God guide the hands and minds of the doctors to heal her in the manner that He wills. Also please ask that God wrap his arms around Tiffany, her father, brother, family and friends and offer them peace and comfort in such a time. Amen.

Whoo Hoo! (Updated) (Updated again)

I will be starting birth control pills on the 31st!  (the witch showed up this morning..so I will probably be starting the birth control on Saturday!!!!) (Sticking with the original plan...starting on the 31st!) That's the initiation of the 3rd round! Prayers for a great and successful cycle are appreciated beyond comprehension! 

I really do stink at this blogging thing, and I am so sorry....However, my life has been a series of hills to climb then roll down in a child like fashion...and since the hills are generally small, they keep coming....and I keep climbing and rolling!  :) 

I will update more later, but it's a little past 8:00 am and I have to get to work!  Love and blessings in mass quantities! 

On the Road Again!

I received confirmation and a super sweet email last week from my IP's that we are going another round!  The details are still null, but at least the gears have started to move in some fashion.  :)

I am very excited to be able to give this another shot. Third times a charm, right?  I will just need all of your prayers and positive loving energy along the way, if you don't mind!  I love you lots!  Blessings and love!

Crystal

Uppitydate....

I’m not even going to begin this with my usual life got busy so I didn’t blog excuse.  I don’t have much to say in regards to the surrogacy process, as there have been no decisions made one way or another.  We are still at a standstill….I think more like ½ a block away from the crossroads than at them. 

In my life I’ve been dealing with a bought of depression.  With this failed IVF, the loneliness that has come with working separate shifts than Jesse, and the loss of a friend my guard was down and I allowed myself to be enveloped in deep sadness.  It’s been a long couple of months, but I am slowly but surely making my way through the murkiness and into the bright sunshine filled world that I am blessed to be a part of.  I’ve made two very amazing friends who have helped with the loneliness….Jen, one of my new best friends is by far one of the most compassionate people I have ever known and I am so blessed that she was introduced to me by the grace of God.  She has helped me more than anyone could ever know and I didn’t even ask for it, for that I am eternally grateful.  The other, Katie, is super amazing and I have known her for years, but we never had the chance to hang out…except when I would drop Sydney off at school……Now she lives down the road….She’s an amazing friend too…super sweet, an insane artist (seriously her art is that good), she’s a professional DJ (however not currently doing that work) and a teacher…and she is so easy to talk to. 

I also have been graced with the presence of my best friend Jasmine and my niece Sophia as they came into town for our friend Sheena's wedding (which was awesome!)....

So, I'm slowly coming out of my funk....slowly.....  I just know everything works out....it always does.  :)

My kids are doing great!  Here are a couple of pics… and my new siggy that I made for my allaboutsurrogacy.com profile.  J 

Hope this finds you well!!

I took all of the pictures (even the background of the siggy) myself!  :)  Edited the ones of the girls...yay!

And We Have Contact!

So, wouldn't it figure that after I posted my update in Limbo I would get an email from M!?!  I figured I would share the email that I got from her and then the one I sent back...Just for a little more insight.

FROM:  M

Hey Crystal.

I’m so sorry it’s taken so long to contact you. 

It’s been a busy time with DS' (took out their sons name; DS means Dear Son) 3^rd birthday, family visits, out-of-town travel and general life craziness.

Also, we just  haven’t known what to tell you.  We still don’t know quite what to do next, so everything is still in the air.  We hope to make some sort of decision soon, but as you can imagine, it’s just such a big and difficult thing to think about. With only one embryo left (and this one has been refrozen, unlike the others), our hopes aren’t high, and it’s a lot to go through to get all the way to transfer day only to be told that it didn’t survive the thaw, or doesn’t look viable.  So we’re feeling a little stuck.

That said, we will make some kind of decision soon-ish, and we’ll get back to you as soon as we can with that.

In the meantime, I hope you know – completely – that you did everything you could have to make these two transfers successful.  We know that we are just victims of the odds (about 50 %), and they just didn’t go our way. We hope that you aren’t blaming yourself in any way.  We certainly don’t have anything but great feelings about you.

Be well, and we’ll hope to be in touch soon.

M

FROM:  ME

Dear M,

It is SO good to hear from you guys!  I'm glad that you are doing okay! 

I agree with you 100% that you are in a very tough position right now, and although I can't fully understand from your level, I do know that any decision regarding the whole process shouldn't be rushed or even taken lightly.  I am glad that you emailed me though, it takes away the feeling of unknowing, which is a relief.  Not whether or not you will want to move forward, but that you are okay. 

Happy 3rd birthday to DS!  How exciting and what a fun fun age!  I am turning 10 x's that age on Saturday and am looking forward to making the most of this upcoming decade of my life!  :)  It's going to be wonderful! 

Have a beautiful day! 

Crystal

Thank you all for reading my blog and sharing this journey with me!  I appreciate you all!

OH!! And BIG News for me (more for my friends Allissa and Gilbert)...but I'm going to be a Godmother in December!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm so uber excited!  LOVES! Congrats guys!

Still in Limbo as I Count Down the Last 3 Days of my 20's!

Well, it's been over a month since the last transfer, and I haven't heard anything from M & M.  That is why I haven't given you an update until this point....I was waiting for some substantial news to tell you, which I unfortunately do not have. 

All is well with me otherwise and I have many blessings in my life, thank you God.  I'm a little lonely with Jesse's work schedule being opposite of mine, but my good friend Jen has been a great adage to my life and we have many visits each week.  I think we found our friendship at a time when we both needed someone and I am lucky to know her and her family.  My girls are doing great, Syd is about to graduate the 4th grade and Jocelyn is entering the terrible twos...and for a little one who thinks and says she's a princess, this can be maddening!  ;)  Our four legged kids are doing great too.  Ollie, my dog, is AMAZING and as smart as can be....although at 3 months, he is HUGE.  His paws are already bigger than Jesse's German Sheppard/ Siberian Husky Sasha's...and he eats 2 xs as much as her...3 times a day!  But, he's potty trained, knows sit, and shake.  We are still working on down and hush...he's a verbal little big guy!  I got him when he was 5 weeks old and he was so small.  Mom was a stray and she was a medium size mutt, so I expected him to be around the same size...but whatever his daddy was must have been huge!!!  He looks part Mastiff...but whatever he is....I'm in love!

I will be turning 30 this Saturday and plan on singing some karaoke with many of my good friends because the camp ground ended up being closed up until this weekend due to snow.  Thank you Oregon.  ;)  It's okay though, we have all summer to do some camping...and oh it will happen!

So, that's basically my update for you.  I am in a state of unknowing regarding the surrogacy.  If M & M decide to not move forward, I may try to find another couple to help...I already have it in my head that I am doing this....Why quit now?

In Limbo

So it’s been almost two weeks since the failed IVF and I have only corresponded with my IP’s via text messaging two days after the news.  I haven’t heard anything from them since that time.  I did send an email two days ago letting them know that I realize what a difficult and trying time this must be and also that I support whatever route they decide to take next, but I’m lost.  I have never been content in waiting and unknowing.  It’s difficult for me to function without knowing what’s coming next.  I, in no shape or form, want to rush them into making a decision, this is just how I feel and I need to get it out there because it’s causing me some stress and anxiety.   I kind of need to know which way my gears should be turning, you know? 

Anywho…Life is going okay…no major complaints..love my family...yada yada.  I did, however, have to cancel my much anticipated  30^th Birthday camping trip on June 11th due to snow and my unwillingness to subject my two year old to 3 days in freezing cold weather….and am looking for alternatives (suggestions please!)  I will be meeting with other members of the best gym ever - SKOGG Gym (https://www.facebook.com/#!/home.php?sk=group_44466204853) for an hour on my birthday, but other than that, as of now the day is open. 

As always, have a beautiful day!  Loves!

Pity Pity.

My headspace is cloudy and lonely.

I dream of this offering that I have been unable to give, and not for a lack of trying, because I did. 

I’m sad. 

I’m lost. 

I don’t know where this journey is headed…

but right now I am in a purgatory of solitude and unknowing. 

It’s cloudy…

The moisture gathers on my face and streaks my make up.

Sorry...The Blogger Was Down...BETA results: BFN

The embryo's didn't take.  Yesterday was very hard for me because I felt so sad for M & M.  I really thought that they were going to stick...Although, the negative beta didn't surprise me...after taking all of those negative HPT's, I had a feeling it would be negative as well. 

M & M are taking it harder this time around too...and they have only one more shot with the last little totsicle.  I don't know where we are going from here or if they will want me to try a third time.  I will let you know.

I do have to say thank you so much to my friend's for your support. I took it really hard and bawled like a baby at my work desk but your words and love really helped me more than you will know. You are all amazing.  I went over to my friend Jen's house and the kids played and Jason made dinner...it was nice to be there....so Thanks JEN!  :)  Then I went home and popped the cork on a bottle of red...

On another note, I will be turning the big 30 next month and I am finally going camping for my birthday!  I have the spot reserved at Clear Lake, OR (lot 9...right by the water!)  I'm so excited!  At this rate though, there might be snow!!!  Gotta take my long underwear!  :)  All are invited, you just have to get your own spot as ours is full! 

I think I might go sing some Karaoke tomorrow night at the Farm House.....get my mind off things..have some fun.  Yeah...I might just do that.

I hope all is well with you and that you have a beautiful day.....Thanks for reading this (random at times) blog of mine!  Loves <3
Then,

So SLLLOOOOWWW....BAH!

Hi W-loo!  I hope you are well!

2 more days until my blood test!  I will know for sure that I am pregnant and the sweet little Emby's decided to stick on Thursday afternoon and M & M will have one or two beautiful babies to hold in their arms!  The wait is driving me crazy..  Of course I have taken HPT's as I stated yesterday...but I refuse to take anymore.  I will let the real deciding factor (the BETA) tell me for sure.  Last cycle I had positive HPT's that faded and obviously a non-sticking embryo.....Honestly though, I feel pregnant....I mean it could be the injections, but I feel it more than physically....Here's to hoping and wishing and dreaming and praying! Loves!

Freaking 2WW!

Yes, I have been quiet since my transfer...but that is because there really hasn't been much going on....

I’ve peed on a dozen HPT’s (all BFN but it’s still EARLY )….

I am exhausted, nauseous, my girl’s (boobies) hurt, and I have had some twinges in my uterine area…..I really feel good about this transfer and I can’t wait, although I have to, for Thursday’s BETA (hcg blood level test).  I think I have peed about 10 times or more (no exaggeration) since this morning….Of course, these symptoms can all be attributed to the injections of Progesterone and Estrogen.  Please continue sending me those sticky vibes (in any manner you see fit!)  Loves! 

Smooth as a Baby's Bottom!

The transfer went so smooth...I'm not sure that there are enough O's to define how smooth it went!  :o)



This was me today, post acupuncture pre-transfer.....I felt so amazing and relaxed.



These are TWO little guys/gals that were transferred. The left one is the most promising as it was actively growing, but the one on the right was very slow, but still alive (I'm rooting for them both!)

Everything went without a hitch and I am home on bed rest! Can't wait to find out my first BETA results next Thursday and share the good news with you! & STICKY VIBES Please!?! Thanks you guys!

Today is the day!

So on day two of my vacation, I was up once again at 6:00 am....Damn you body clock! 

In other news, today is transfer day!  I will go into ORM at 12:30 pm for a round of acupuncture and then the transfer will be done.  We will find out for sure how many embryo's they will place in the oven at that time and I will update you later.  Then back to another round of acupuncture followed by 48 hours of bedrest.  ICK!  I'm not a fan of bedrest, especially when I have to deny my little ones of playtime or anything else, but I do have great support and help...THANK YOU ERIN M. & KRISTI W.  Oh!  and of course Jesse...

I may not get to the update as soon as I would like, only because they will have me take a valium pre-transfer....But I promise to update sooner than I did the last time!! 

Have a beautiful day and send me lots of sticky vibes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  LOVES!

Just Sitting Here...

It's so beautiful today, yet I'm here in my pj's.  Jocelyn hasn't been feeling well and is taking a nap and we have been lounging basically all day.  I think some fresh air will be good for her (and me), so I will take her to the park when she gets up.  I'm feeling awfully lazy though.  Ick!

The transfer is just two day's away and I am so excited!  My bum is so sore from the Progesterone shots, even more than the last transfer.  Oh well, it's worth it to help M & M complete their beautiful family!

OH!  I heard the best news today that one of my best friends is expecting a little one herself...I'm so excited!!!  It's her first...but I know she will appreciate the whole process of pregnancy because she's awesome like that and very in tune with her body.  YAY & CONGRATULATIONS love!!!!!  

Okay guys....I better get off here and go get dressed so we can go play at the park....

Have a beautiful day and loves!

1000 Views and a Geeky Gift for you!...a List of Acronyms Dealing with Fertility

Don't pretend....I know you're excited!  I know I am! I just noticed my blog has been viewed 1000 times (thanks for sharing my journey!) ALSO, I start my vacation this Friday!  Whoot!  I ordered 25 pee sticks (POAS) and am ready for a great transfer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here is a list of some of the most used acronyms:

AAS: All About Surrogacy
2WW: 2-Week Wait
AF: Aunt Flo -Your menstrual period
AI: Artificial Insemination
AP: Adoptive Parents
ART: Assisted reproductive therapy
AZH or AH: Assisted Hatching
BBT: Basal Body Temperature
BCP: Birth Control Pills
BETA: Blood test for Pregnancy
BFP: Big Fat Positive (found on HPT, and Betas)
BFN: Big Fat Negative (these are no fun, also found on HPT's & Betas)
BM: Birth Mom
BMI: Body Mass Index (measure of body fat based on height and weight)
BTW: By the way
BTDT : Been there, Done that.
B/W: Bloodwork
CB: Cycle Buddy
CD: Cycle day - The first day of your period is cycle day 1
CM: Cervical Mucus
CNM: Certified Nurse Midwife
CTX: Contractions
CVS: Chorionic Villus Sampling
D&C: Dilation & Curettage
D&E: Dilation & Evacuation
DE: Donor Egg/Donor Embryo
DD: Dear/Darling Daughter
DH: Dear/Darling/Damn) Husband
DPO: Days Post Ovulation
DPR: Days Post-Retrieval
DP3DT: Days Post 3-Day Transfer
DP5DT: Days Post 5-Day Transfer
DPT: Days Post Transfer
E2: Estrogen
ED: Egg donor/donation
EDD: Estimated Due Date
ELV: Easy Labor Vibes
EPT: Early Pregnancy Test
ET: Embryo Transfer
FET: Frozen Embryo Transfer
FGS: Former Gestational Surrogate
FHR: Fetal Heart Rate
FIF: Former Intended Father
FIM: Former Intended Mother
FIL: Father-in-law
FIP: Former Intended Parents
FRED: Pregnancy Test Brand: First Response, Early Detection. Now called Early Result.
FSH: Follicle Stimulating Hormone
FSM: Former Surrogate Mother
FTS: Former Traditional Surrogate
GC: Gestational Carrier
GD: Gestational Diabetes
GIFT: Gamete Intrafallopian Transfer
GS: Gestational Surrogate
GTT: Glucose Tolerance Test
hCG, HCG: Human Chorionic Gonadotropin
HI: Home Insemination
HPT: Home Pregnancy Test
HOM: High order multiples
HSC: Hysteroscopy
HSG: Hysterosalpingogram
ICI: Intra-cervical Insemination
ICSI: Intracytoplasmic Sperm Injection
IF: Intended Father
IM: Intended Mother
IMO/IMHO: In my opinion/In my humble opinion
Indy/Independent-Working with out an agency.
IP: Intended Parent/Parents
Indy: Independent Surrogacy Journey, You don't use an agency.
ITI: Intra-tubal Insemination
IVF: In Vitro Fertilization
IUI: Intrauterine Insemination
JMO/JMHO: Just my opinion/Just my humble opinion
KWIM: Know what I mean?
LH: Luteinizing Hormone
LMAO: Laughing my (butt) off
LMP: Last Menstrual Period (start date)
LP: Luteal Phase
M/C: Miscarriage
MFI: Male Factor Infertility
MIL: Mother-in-law
MOO: My Own Opinion
M/S: Morning sickness
O: Ovulation
OB: Obstetrician
OB/GYN: Obstetrician/Gynecologist
OPK: Ovulation Predictor Kit
OPT: Ovulation Predictor Test
P4: Progesterone
PBO: Prebirth Order
POAS: Pee on a Stick (referring to a Home Pregnancy Test)
PCOS: Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome
PCOD: Poly-cystic Ovarian Disease
PED: Potential Egg Donor
PG: Pregnant
PGD: Pre implantation genetic diagnosis
PGS: Potential Gestational Surrogate
PIO: Progesterone in Oil
PIP: Potential Intended Parent
PIF: Potential Intended Father
PIM: Potential Intended Mother
PMS: Pre-menstrual Syndrome
PSM: Potential Surrogate Mother
PTL: Preterm Labor
PTS: Potential Traditional Surrogate
RE: Reproductive Endocrinologist
Rx: Prescription
ER: Retrieval (Egg)
SA: Sperm/Semen Analysis
SD: Sperm Donor
SIL: Sister-in-law
SM: Surrogate Mother
STD: Sexually Transmitted Disease
Stims: Medications used to stimulate the ovaries
TS: Traditional Surrogate
TTC: Trying To Conceive
u/s: Ultrasound
zift: Zygote Intrafallopian Transfer

A Week from Today...and a Hormonal Reaction to Wonderful News!

I found out from my IM that we are leaning towards transferring two embryos this time!  This is great news because it will increase the chances of a pregnancy occurring.  Of course the chance for multiples is increased, but that doesn't bother me...

Speaking of multiples, I found out yesterday via Facebook that my brother and his wife are expecting twins!  I think this is wonderful news, but yesterday, I was very hormonal or in other words....EMOTIONAL!  My feelings were so hurt that I found out that way, but in reality I know from experience not to expect much in the area of thoughtfulness from him, plus, he's a dude.  :)  So, YAY for him and his wife! 

What I think caused me to be so insanely hormonal and is the most logical explanation is the endocrinologist tripled of Delestrogen.  That's right.....I said tripled it.  That's only because I was supposed to double my dose for two injections prior to my appointment and my lining, although good, was slightly thin.  The doctor said this was not a bad problem to have and then blamed it on them, although I feel responsible.  The good news is, my lining is now where it should be, the bad news is, they are keeping me on the tripled dose!  Ahhh!  Well, at least there is an explanation to my crying like a girl at work.  :) 

Have a beautiful day and as always....loves!

Oh!  And more good news!  My friend and one of Jocelyn's teachers from daycare will be coming over while Jesse is at work to help me out!  THANK YOU Erin!

WAIT! Did I Say Just Two Weeks!?!?! HELP!!!

Last night as I attempted to go to sleep and ignore my ever wandering mind wanting to over analyze the world, I realized how much I need to get done in only two weeks. 

Fortunately, I think the main thing that I need to take care of, a ride home, is set in stone.  This is because of my fiancés new job in which he works nights.  Of course, that brings on a whole new set of issues.  Who is going to watch the girls at night when I am supposed to be on bed rest?  I may be freaking out a little on that part.  Syd, my 10 year old, is pretty self sufficient (she can even cook eggs now!), but my two year old Joce, who I will have for 2 nights without Syd after the transfer, if obviously not.  I’m not sure what I am going to do, but I am thinking I better figure it out soon.  Maybe I will take the IP’s up on their offer for a food service, housekeeping, and childcare, at least for those two nights.  I feel bad asking them to provide that though, so I will see if I can find an alternative plan.  Any ideas??????  Please?

Next on my list of things to do is make sure that the acupuncturist is set up for the transfer.  I have no doubt that she (and maybe the Valium), created the calm that allowed for such an easy transfer with the last round.  She is amazing. 

I also think that setting up my area for bed rest to be filled with peaceful flow and ambience will be beneficial.  I am actually glad that I am stressing now, because I don’t want to wait until the last minute and put my body into defense mode.

So, that is where my brain is.  I am sure there a million more things to be taken care of, but for now, those are the biggies.  I am off to work now. 

Have a beautiful day.  All suggestions would be highly appreciated. 

And as always….Loves.

Two Weeks from Today!

In exactly two weeks, minus a few hours, embryo transfer number two will occur! I didn’t realize how close it was until I looked at my Outlook calendar. Two weeks! Time really is flying, isn’t it?

Things are going well here. I have experienced a little bloating and emotional sensitivity, but both are symptoms that are to be expected with the cocktail of hormones I am injecting myself with. I find myself in moments of self pity because I feel alone, even though I have many amazing and wonderful people in my life and all is well once I remind myself of that.

So far, all I know about the transfer is the date and time. I will let you know more once I am more informed. I doubt I will know the number of embryo’s, but my assumption is that it will be just one. If it is more than that, it would probably be the re-freeze from the last transfer, and there are no statistics on the viability of a re-frozen embryo. Who knows....I promise I will let you know. :)

Have a beautiful day. Loves.

It's not just you...I've been ignoring all of my writing projects...

I wouldn't quite call it a funk, because I have been in a super mood lately.  I have just been busy having fun with my kids and working....Did I mention how much I hate litigation!  :)  No..no I did not, because that was only my third sentence.

I started the Delestrogen this past Sunday (the 2x week intramuscular injection meds.)  It always seems more daunting than it really is to stick that 2.5" needle into myself.  It was cake.

I honestly can't believe how fast time is flying this cycle.  I think it's probably because of not having to deal with the mock cycle and Climara patches.  May 3rd is just around the corner!  I took the rest of the week off of work for the transfer.  I don't want any of that stress to effect my body and the implantation of the embryo.  I'm going to take it easy the WHOLE time.  I need a maid and a personal chef...anyone interested?

And the New Cycle Begins!

I start the Lupron shots today..which means the ball is officially rolling towards the next transfer!  I am positive that this one will stick and that my IP's will have a beautiful baby in January of 2012! 

Work is about to begin, so I can't write much.  I would like to share a favorite quote of mine that always makes me feel better about the changes in my life...Maybe it will help you too...if needed of course!

"Life is like a garden. Quite naturally, leaves wither and flowers fade. Only if we clear the decay of the past then and there can we really enjoy the beauty of the new leaves and flowers. Likewise, we must clear the murkiness of the past bad experiences from our minds. Life is remembrance in forgetfulness. Forgive what ought to be forgiven; forget what ought to be forgotten. Let us embrace life with renewed vigor. We should be able to face every moment of life with renewed expectation, like a freshly blossomed flower." - Mata Amritanandamayi


As always, loves!

Just a Quick Ramble!

Yay!  School is over for a while!  I am officially taking a break because if I do not, I will go insane!!!!!!   Time to focus on my family, work, the surrogacy, the gym, and myself! 

I start the Lupron shots a week from today.  I am super excited to get the cycle started! 

Things have been going great for me personally.  Work is what it is and home is good too.  We are still adjusting to my fiancé Jesse’s new work schedule (nights), so there have been some cranky moments as we all are losing sleep trying to figure it out, especially with a two year old!  It’s nothing we can’t handle though…..It is bound to take some time! 

Did I mention that I got a new car?  A Mazda5 Grand Touring!  I am so in love with her!  The name Maggie just came to me, so that’s what I call her.  She’s awesome!  We were so upside down on my last car.  We owed about $12,500 and it was only worth $7000….I had to get out of that!  Fortunately, the payments are the same, so there was no need to adjust my budget.  I also get WAY better gas mileage, and we all know how important that is right now!  (can you tell I’m excited?) 

Speaking of cars, I also was able, through mere luck and the friendship of an old man, to purchase a 1957 Chevy Bel Air for Jesse on Valentine’s Day!   It’s awesome and only needs a few tweaks to be road ready!  Love it! 

Anyways, thanks for listening to me ramble.  I have a feeling this may occur more often now that I have a break from school!  I hope all is well and as always, loves!!

Leaving the Funk Behind!

Inspired by the sunshine, 50 degree weather this morning at 7:15 a.m., really good music, and alignment I have decided to leave the funk in my life behind.  The only thing that has been holding me back from my usual positive outlook is my own negative thoughts that I keep allowing to cross my mind.  GOOD RIDDANCE!  I am amazing and I have PLENTY of wonderful people in my life.  I can do anything. 

I know that this has nothing to do with the surrogacy, but I just feel like spreading good lovin’ energy!  I appreciate you all and the time that you spend reading about this major event in my life.  I wish you all the happiness in the WORLD!  Thank you so much for being you!  That is all.  Loves.

I Got the 2nd Cycle Calendar!

How exciting!  Honestly this waiting between cycle's has been driving me crazy!  I'm still going to have to wait until the end of this month before the shot's start, but at least we have a calendar now!  The calendar is below.  They never want to copy paste right! Also, the last week of the first month is the first week in the second month.  I hope that makes some kind of sense!  They overlap!    

I am very happy to have this calendar and glad that I can share it with you!  Thanks for listenting!  Have a beautiful day!





              Pt:                         OCP START:             3/15                Delestrogen FET CALENDAR

SUNDAY	MONDAY	TUESDAY	WEDNESDAY	THURSDAY	FRIDAY	SATURDAY
You have already taken birth control pills for several days when this calendar begins	3/28 Lupron 10 units         Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.   Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin Birth Control Pills PAYMENT DUE IN FULL CONSENTS DUE	3/29 Lupron 10 units Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.   Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin Birth control Pills	3/30 Lupron 10 units    Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.   Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin Birth control Pills	3/31 Lupron 10 units    Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.       Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin Birth control Pills	4/1 Last Active Birth     Control Pill (18 pills total) Lupron 10 units    Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.   Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/2 No more birth control pills                       Lupron 10 units Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.   Aspirin 81mg Prenatal Vitamins
4/3 Lupron 10 units   Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m. Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/4 When period begins: Call RN w/ period, RN will instruct you when to decrease Lupron dose   Lupron 10 units Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.   Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/5 Lupron 10 units unless otherwise directed by RN Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.   Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/6 Lupron _____ Doxycycline twice daily a.m. & p.m.   Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/7 Estradiol blood test Lupron _____ Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/8 Lupron _____ Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/9 Lupron _____ Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin
4/10 If menses started: Start Delestrogen 0.1      ml in PM Lupron 5 units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal Vitamin	4/11 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/12 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/13 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/14 Delestrogen 0.2 ml in the P.M. Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/15 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/16 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin
4/17 Delestrogen 0.25 ml in the P.M. Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/18 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/19 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/20 Office Visit in the AM Ultrasound and lab draw            Mm             Pattern Estradiol Blood Test Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/21 Delestrogen ___ml--PM Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/22 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/23 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin
4/24 Delestrogen ___ml in PM Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin     * Continue Aspirin and Prenatal Vitamins until pregnancy test	4/25 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/26 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/27  Stop Lupron – No Lupron Today  Start Progesterone in ethyl oleate 1 ml (in PM)  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	4/28 Day 0 Delestrogen ___ml      in PM  Progesterone in ethyl oleate  1 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet at bedtime  81 mg Aspirin   PNV	Day 1                     4/29  Blood Test E2/P4 at:_____________  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet twice daily through evening of transfer  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 2                   4/30  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet twice daily through evening of transfer  81 mg Aspirin  PNV

    - Continue Delestrogen-Sunday/Thursday evenings, Progesterone 2ml daily, Aspirin and Vitamin daily. 

 

SUNDAY	MONDAY	TUESDAY	WEDNESDAY	THURSDAY	FRIDAY	SATURDAY
4/24       Delestrogen ___ml in PM Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin     * Continue Aspirin and Prenatal Vitamins until 1st pregnancy test, if positive continue until directed to stop*	4/25 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/26 Lupron 5units Aspirin 81 mg Prenatal vitamin	4/27  Stop Lupron – No Lupron Today  Start Progesterone in ethyl oleate 1 ml (in PM)  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 0              4/28 Delestrogen ___ml      in PM  Progesterone in ethyl oleate  1 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet at bedtime  81 mg Aspirin   PNV	Day 1                   4/29  Blood Test E2/P4 at:_____________  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet twice daily through evening of transfer  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 2            4/30  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet twice daily through evening of transfer  81 mg Aspirin  PNV
Day 3                    5/1 Delestrogen ___ml      in PM  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet twice daily through evening of transfer  81 mg Aspirin      PNV	Day 4              5/2  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet twice daily through evening of transfer  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 5- day 5 transfer    5/3 Arrive at: ___12:30_____ Transfer at:__1:15______ _ Empty bladder and begin drinking 1 qt. of clear fluids 1 hour before transfer  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  Medrol 1 tablet each evening through evening of transfer  Doxycycline 1 tablet twice daily through evening of transfer  81 mg Aspirin      PNV	Day 6             5/4  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 7                5/5 Delestrogen ____ml      in PM  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 8                    5/6  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 9              5/7  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin  PNV
Day 10                 5/8 Delestrogen _____ml      in PM  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 11              5/9  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 12           5/10  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 13          5/11  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin  PNV	Day 14           5/12 Delestrogen ____ml      in PM  BhCG pregnancy test (8-10:00 am)  Begin Progesterone capsules twice daily  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin   PNV	Day 15            5/13   Progesterone capsules twice daily  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin   PNV	Day 16            5/14   Progesterone capsules twice daily  Progesterone in ethyl oleate 2 ml  81 mg Aspirin   PNV

·         Continue Delestrogen- Sunday/Thursday evenings, Progesterone 2ml daily, Aspirin and Vitamin daily.  Use Progesterone Vaginal Suppositories when directed by nurse or physician.