Wednesday, June 8, 2011

And We Have Contact!

So, wouldn't it figure that after I posted my update in Limbo I would get an email from M!?!  I figured I would share the email that I got from her and then the one I sent back...Just for a little more insight.


Hey Crystal.

I’m so sorry it’s taken so long to contact you. 

It’s been a busy time with DS' (took out their sons name; DS means Dear Son) 3rd birthday, family visits, out-of-town travel and general life craziness.

Also, we just  haven’t known what to tell you.  We still don’t know quite what to do next, so everything is still in the air.  We hope to make some sort of decision soon, but as you can imagine, it’s just such a big and difficult thing to think about. With only one embryo left (and this one has been refrozen, unlike the others), our hopes aren’t high, and it’s a lot to go through to get all the way to transfer day only to be told that it didn’t survive the thaw, or doesn’t look viable.  So we’re feeling a little stuck.

That said, we will make some kind of decision soon-ish, and we’ll get back to you as soon as we can with that.

In the meantime, I hope you know – completely – that you did everything you could have to make these two transfers successful.  We know that we are just victims of the odds (about 50 %), and they just didn’t go our way. We hope that you aren’t blaming yourself in any way.  We certainly don’t have anything but great feelings about you.

Be well, and we’ll hope to be in touch soon.



Dear M,
It is SO good to hear from you guys!  I'm glad that you are doing okay! 
I agree with you 100% that you are in a very tough position right now, and although I can't fully understand from your level, I do know that any decision regarding the whole process shouldn't be rushed or even taken lightly.  I am glad that you emailed me though, it takes away the feeling of unknowing, which is a relief.  Not whether or not you will want to move forward, but that you are okay. 
Happy 3rd birthday to DS!  How exciting and what a fun fun age!  I am turning 10 x's that age on Saturday and am looking forward to making the most of this upcoming decade of my life!  :)  It's going to be wonderful! 
Have a beautiful day! 
Thank you all for reading my blog and sharing this journey with me!  I appreciate you all!

OH!! And BIG News for me (more for my friends Allissa and Gilbert)...but I'm going to be a Godmother in December!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm so uber excited!  LOVES! Congrats guys!

Still in Limbo as I Count Down the Last 3 Days of my 20's!

Well, it's been over a month since the last transfer, and I haven't heard anything from M & M.  That is why I haven't given you an update until this point....I was waiting for some substantial news to tell you, which I unfortunately do not have. 

All is well with me otherwise and I have many blessings in my life, thank you God.  I'm a little lonely with Jesse's work schedule being opposite of mine, but my good friend Jen has been a great adage to my life and we have many visits each week.  I think we found our friendship at a time when we both needed someone and I am lucky to know her and her family.  My girls are doing great, Syd is about to graduate the 4th grade and Jocelyn is entering the terrible twos...and for a little one who thinks and says she's a princess, this can be maddening!  ;)  Our four legged kids are doing great too.  Ollie, my dog, is AMAZING and as smart as can be....although at 3 months, he is HUGE.  His paws are already bigger than Jesse's German Sheppard/ Siberian Husky Sasha's...and he eats 2 xs as much as her...3 times a day!  But, he's potty trained, knows sit, and shake.  We are still working on down and hush...he's a verbal little big guy!  I got him when he was 5 weeks old and he was so small.  Mom was a stray and she was a medium size mutt, so I expected him to be around the same size...but whatever his daddy was must have been huge!!!  He looks part Mastiff...but whatever he is....I'm in love!

I will be turning 30 this Saturday and plan on singing some karaoke with many of my good friends because the camp ground ended up being closed up until this weekend due to snow.  Thank you Oregon.  ;)  It's okay though, we have all summer to do some camping...and oh it will happen!

So, that's basically my update for you.  I am in a state of unknowing regarding the surrogacy.  If M & M decide to not move forward, I may try to find another couple to help...I already have it in my head that I am doing this....Why quit now?