Tuesday, January 3, 2012


So...yeah...it's been more than a while since I have updated my blog and I am sorry to those of you who care.

My last cycle was a bust.  I went  through all the motions all the way up to the point where I was laying on the table ready for the transfer...The embryologist came in just as the Dr. said we were ready (legs up and everything) and told us that the embryo had died.  It was insanely sad.

This mixed with the fact that I was laid off in September, have an uncle (successfully) battling cancer, and missing my family during the holidays has kept me pretty quiet and hermit like.  I've been quite lonely as Jesse works nights and seems to sleep all day.  I know I have the girls, but adult conversation, for me, is needed.  I have been lucky to have two great friends who visit me on occasion and I thank God for them because they keep me sane! ;) Lack of money has kept me pretty tied to the house as it is, so going "out" hasn't really been in the cards, so the company is nice and I love them for it!

On the surrogacy front, I should know more soon.  My IP's are finding an embryo donor and plan on moving forward with me as their carrier.  I will update when I know more.

Love and blessings!


  1. I know the feeling of having little to no adult conversation, it's madnass at times, there is only so many conversations you feel like having about cartoon's and crayons. keep your head up, the way i look at it is that they will grow up too fast, and this stage of life will be a memory, so enjoy it for what it is. it seems hard at times i know, but your far from alone in your situation. Friends seem to disapear when you have kids, but it will get better. Good luck !

  2. I love this anonymous comment, whoever you are! Perspective is key! Thank you!!!