A Week from Today...and a Hormonal Reaction to Wonderful News!

I found out from my IM that we are leaning towards transferring two embryos this time!  This is great news because it will increase the chances of a pregnancy occurring.  Of course the chance for multiples is increased, but that doesn't bother me...

Speaking of multiples, I found out yesterday via Facebook that my brother and his wife are expecting twins!  I think this is wonderful news, but yesterday, I was very hormonal or in other words....EMOTIONAL!  My feelings were so hurt that I found out that way, but in reality I know from experience not to expect much in the area of thoughtfulness from him, plus, he's a dude.  :)  So, YAY for him and his wife! 

What I think caused me to be so insanely hormonal and is the most logical explanation is the endocrinologist tripled of Delestrogen.  That's right.....I said tripled it.  That's only because I was supposed to double my dose for two injections prior to my appointment and my lining, although good, was slightly thin.  The doctor said this was not a bad problem to have and then blamed it on them, although I feel responsible.  The good news is, my lining is now where it should be, the bad news is, they are keeping me on the tripled dose!  Ahhh!  Well, at least there is an explanation to my crying like a girl at work.  :) 

Have a beautiful day and as always....loves!

Oh!  And more good news!  My friend and one of Jocelyn's teachers from daycare will be coming over while Jesse is at work to help me out!  THANK YOU Erin!

WAIT! Did I Say Just Two Weeks!?!?! HELP!!!

Last night as I attempted to go to sleep and ignore my ever wandering mind wanting to over analyze the world, I realized how much I need to get done in only two weeks. 

Fortunately, I think the main thing that I need to take care of, a ride home, is set in stone.  This is because of my fiancés new job in which he works nights.  Of course, that brings on a whole new set of issues.  Who is going to watch the girls at night when I am supposed to be on bed rest?  I may be freaking out a little on that part.  Syd, my 10 year old, is pretty self sufficient (she can even cook eggs now!), but my two year old Joce, who I will have for 2 nights without Syd after the transfer, if obviously not.  I’m not sure what I am going to do, but I am thinking I better figure it out soon.  Maybe I will take the IP’s up on their offer for a food service, housekeeping, and childcare, at least for those two nights.  I feel bad asking them to provide that though, so I will see if I can find an alternative plan.  Any ideas??????  Please?

Next on my list of things to do is make sure that the acupuncturist is set up for the transfer.  I have no doubt that she (and maybe the Valium), created the calm that allowed for such an easy transfer with the last round.  She is amazing. 

I also think that setting up my area for bed rest to be filled with peaceful flow and ambience will be beneficial.  I am actually glad that I am stressing now, because I don’t want to wait until the last minute and put my body into defense mode.

So, that is where my brain is.  I am sure there a million more things to be taken care of, but for now, those are the biggies.  I am off to work now. 

Have a beautiful day.  All suggestions would be highly appreciated. 

And as always….Loves.

Two Weeks from Today!

In exactly two weeks, minus a few hours, embryo transfer number two will occur! I didn’t realize how close it was until I looked at my Outlook calendar. Two weeks! Time really is flying, isn’t it?

Things are going well here. I have experienced a little bloating and emotional sensitivity, but both are symptoms that are to be expected with the cocktail of hormones I am injecting myself with. I find myself in moments of self pity because I feel alone, even though I have many amazing and wonderful people in my life and all is well once I remind myself of that.

So far, all I know about the transfer is the date and time. I will let you know more once I am more informed. I doubt I will know the number of embryo’s, but my assumption is that it will be just one. If it is more than that, it would probably be the re-freeze from the last transfer, and there are no statistics on the viability of a re-frozen embryo. Who knows....I promise I will let you know. :)

Have a beautiful day. Loves.

It's not just you...I've been ignoring all of my writing projects...

I wouldn't quite call it a funk, because I have been in a super mood lately.  I have just been busy having fun with my kids and working....Did I mention how much I hate litigation!  :)  No..no I did not, because that was only my third sentence.

I started the Delestrogen this past Sunday (the 2x week intramuscular injection meds.)  It always seems more daunting than it really is to stick that 2.5" needle into myself.  It was cake.

I honestly can't believe how fast time is flying this cycle.  I think it's probably because of not having to deal with the mock cycle and Climara patches.  May 3rd is just around the corner!  I took the rest of the week off of work for the transfer.  I don't want any of that stress to effect my body and the implantation of the embryo.  I'm going to take it easy the WHOLE time.  I need a maid and a personal chef...anyone interested?

And the New Cycle Begins!

I start the Lupron shots today..which means the ball is officially rolling towards the next transfer!  I am positive that this one will stick and that my IP's will have a beautiful baby in January of 2012! 

Work is about to begin, so I can't write much.  I would like to share a favorite quote of mine that always makes me feel better about the changes in my life...Maybe it will help you too...if needed of course!

"Life is like a garden. Quite naturally, leaves wither and flowers fade. Only if we clear the decay of the past then and there can we really enjoy the beauty of the new leaves and flowers. Likewise, we must clear the murkiness of the past bad experiences from our minds. Life is remembrance in forgetfulness. Forgive what ought to be forgiven; forget what ought to be forgotten. Let us embrace life with renewed vigor. We should be able to face every moment of life with renewed expectation, like a freshly blossomed flower." - Mata Amritanandamayi


As always, loves!

Just a Quick Ramble!

Yay!  School is over for a while!  I am officially taking a break because if I do not, I will go insane!!!!!!   Time to focus on my family, work, the surrogacy, the gym, and myself! 

I start the Lupron shots a week from today.  I am super excited to get the cycle started! 

Things have been going great for me personally.  Work is what it is and home is good too.  We are still adjusting to my fiancé Jesse’s new work schedule (nights), so there have been some cranky moments as we all are losing sleep trying to figure it out, especially with a two year old!  It’s nothing we can’t handle though…..It is bound to take some time! 

Did I mention that I got a new car?  A Mazda5 Grand Touring!  I am so in love with her!  The name Maggie just came to me, so that’s what I call her.  She’s awesome!  We were so upside down on my last car.  We owed about $12,500 and it was only worth $7000….I had to get out of that!  Fortunately, the payments are the same, so there was no need to adjust my budget.  I also get WAY better gas mileage, and we all know how important that is right now!  (can you tell I’m excited?) 

Speaking of cars, I also was able, through mere luck and the friendship of an old man, to purchase a 1957 Chevy Bel Air for Jesse on Valentine’s Day!   It’s awesome and only needs a few tweaks to be road ready!  Love it! 

Anyways, thanks for listening to me ramble.  I have a feeling this may occur more often now that I have a break from school!  I hope all is well and as always, loves!!

Leaving the Funk Behind!

Inspired by the sunshine, 50 degree weather this morning at 7:15 a.m., really good music, and alignment I have decided to leave the funk in my life behind.  The only thing that has been holding me back from my usual positive outlook is my own negative thoughts that I keep allowing to cross my mind.  GOOD RIDDANCE!  I am amazing and I have PLENTY of wonderful people in my life.  I can do anything. 

I know that this has nothing to do with the surrogacy, but I just feel like spreading good lovin’ energy!  I appreciate you all and the time that you spend reading about this major event in my life.  I wish you all the happiness in the WORLD!  Thank you so much for being you!  That is all.  Loves.